Dear readers,
Tomorrow I will have reached my 30 week mark! 30 weeks!
“http://www.babycenter.com/fetal-development-images-30-weeks
Your baby’s about 15.7 inches long now, and she weighs almost 3 pounds (like a head of cabbage). A pint and a half of amniotic fluid surrounds her, but that volume will decrease as she gets bigger and takes up more room in your uterus. Her eyesight continues to develop, though it’s not very keen; even after she’s born, she’ll keep her eyes closed for a good part of the day. When she does open them, she’ll respond to changes in light but will have 20/400 vision — which means she can only make out objects a few inches from her face. (Normal adult vision is 20/20.)”
I can’t believe that i am so close to being a mother! 10 more weeks (give or take of course) until I am a mom!! A mom!! Crap! The other day I was sitting on the bed putting on my uber amazing bioskin anti-stretch stuff. And I felt something really hard. It was really hard. So I felt around and IT MOVED!!! I poked it again, and I am positive that it was a head or butt. I was sure it was a head, but im not sure if the head is always down now a days. Sam of course got called in and he felt it to!! It was so cool!!
Now when ever I feel this really hard spot, I rub it and move it. Sometimes he pushes back, sometimes he moves. I love it!! I love interacting with my baby!! I am also excited for the baby shower!
I have always loved baby showers, except the ones with the really stupid games. But I love a good baby shower!! I am also looking forward to getting gifts. Because Sam and I are so not prepared. We have 1 jacket and 1 pair of socks, and a small basset. Thats it, so unless im mistaken it takes more than that to raise a baby! The problem is we dont have any money, so unless we get some good gifts and Sam gets a job. Baby is going to be living in my old tee shirts!! Which could be very cute!!
But I am not worried, I know that I am meant to be a mother. Heavenly Father and Jesus want me to be a mother, I am meant to raise children. I use to wonder what I wanted to do with my life, at first I wanted to help people, then I wanted to help children, but nothing really took. I worked teaching youth at risk how to ride horses and it was great, but it just didnt work, i didnt like it. Then I really struggled, what was I going to do with my life.
Sam and I decided that we needed to start a family, it was time. We have been married for 3 years, we knew each other, we loved each other, and we knew it was time. I was excited, but it wasnt the answer. Then I actually got pregnant, I saw my baby on the first ultrasound, I felt the first movement, I felt like a mom.
Now that I am so close to being a mom, I know that this is what I am meant to do. I am meant to be a mother. I can also help other children, but I am going to be a mom. That is going to be the best thing on my resume.
10 weeks to go, 10 weeks until I am fulfilling everything that I am meant to be.
